It hurts you ache. They dont understand. You become sensitive, you become hyper. All emotional and reactive. Strength and stability are sucked from your core. You cant be yourself. Fragile, you want to make them happy, but it turns into advice. And you blow it. They shut to your love.
You want to love them, and there comes a destruction of their friendships and lifestyle. You want more of them, you want more and more. You are even more in love, it hurts, you do everything to relieve the pain, you try, but nothing can make this easy. You love, and the more you love, the more you hurt, crazy, madness, you just cant understand. They dont get it and you struggle, and change and try to cope. You hurt because you love. You try every angle, every idea, nothing helps, hopeless, youre in love.
Yesterday you were fine, friends and family, they even liked you, understood you. But now you are different, pathetic, not yourself. Not the one you thought you were. Vulnerable, its impossible, you cant live with yourself. You want to marry and merge and hibernate, yet, they dont understand, they think its about them, they think you are in love with them, they think its about them, but they are wrong, this is not the case. You are in love with the two, the couple, the pair, the twins. Its not them, its us.
You want them to become an us. The We. Our. Not me and mine, or yours and you. You want to get lost in them, and them in you. No them. No you. Be consumed. But they dont understand and you die. You fight yourself because you blew it. You lost yourself. And they didnt loose themselves. You are a fool, you think. Now you cant find yourself. You threw it away to create we - a we. But they dont understand, they think you are in love with them - about them, their self. And so, they start to cry why dont you love me like before? And you cannot say But I do!
You cannot say that you still love them because there is no we. There is no us. There is just a me, and a you. They dont understand. There was never an us. There was only them. And they didnt understand, they simply didnt turn up. They thought your love was for them but it wasnt just that, it was more, much more, it was two not one, and they could turn up.
And now, you are the accused. Liar, thief, cheat, and their heart is broken because they thought you would be there, no matter what. They say you never loved them and you try to explain that you loved us, not just them. But they just dont understand They thought your love was for them. They thought your love was a sacrifice for them. They thought you put them on an alter, but you wanted to put us on that alter. They thought they were the object of your love. It was not true It was an "us" we loved. We. Our. Us. Not a "U" And they just never showed up. They didnt understand, or just werent ready. For an "US" more important than "U"
It wasnt wrong that it didnt last, you were not wrong, there are no victims. You were not wrong, they just dont understand. They think your love is for them, because thats all they know, them. You just showed up and fell in love with the US. And they couldnt show up. Theres nothing to change in you. It hurts to love. Now, simply go back and do it again and know that one day someone will know how to love the US, more than they love the U. Your love for an US is divine and sacred.
Can you see.
We think its all about me.
But love is not about me, I, you, they, them.
Love is about an us.
To love an US people must let go of the ME and learn to protect it.
In love there is no me.
In love there is no you.
To fall in love is to fall from the I.
And work for the two
Live with Spirit
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